Hiding Depression Behind Humor

By Chef_Utah Latest Activity October 5 at 12:52 pm Views 435 Replies 4 Likes 2

Chef_Utah

Every once in a while I get on YouTube and I get stuck watching videos about Robin Williams. It hits me hard. I don't know Robin but I can imagine, at least a little bit, how he must have felt in real life. He was such a great man and made the world laugh but behind that comedy was depression.

I am a very sarcastic person and am constantly making jokes and trying to laugh and make people laugh because I don't want people to know how I really feel. I am scared of people knowing the feeling of inadequacy, insecurity, and sometimes hopelessness that I really feel inside.

Anyone else feel this way?

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  • Simply-Mush
    Simply-Mush December 1 at 7:49 am   

    I am the same way can make people smile on there most unhappy days but can't seem to fight this depression growing up I was depressed but being the second oldest and the oldest girl in a single parent (Father) home I had to have it together cause everyone look to me as the mother figure so I've laughed to keep from crying and no one ever really knew /know that I am truly depressed I was the class clown in school but also the one no one messed with it's hard trying to get people to understand how you feel after years of them assuming you was a perfectly happy person

  • D&AnTX
    D&AnTX October 29 at 1:37 pm   

    I use sarcastic humor to deflect people away from inquiring too deeply about myself. Through cognitive therapy, I learned sarcastic humor isn't really humor at all - it's all of those things you listed, but mostly anger. Lately, when my usual response is going to be sarcastic - I try to stop and really ask myself what the real feeling is - anger, insecurity, etc. Then I try to have a different response. The sad thing is - I find myself retreating further away from friends & family because I feel that sarcasm is all I have. It's easier to deflect - not healthy, just easier. I want to find real humor in things - not anger or insecurity. More therapy. At the end of the day - I enjoy Robin Williams humor - he reminds me of George Carlin in many ways.

  • Chef_Utah
    Chef_Utah November 1 at 3:17 pm   

    That is very true. Sarcasm is a very easy comfortable response to things. I am fairly angry about a lot of things that have happened in life and I keep it pent up inside a lot.

  • Dr GaryCA October 12 at 1:36 pm   

    Hey Chef_Utah, it is nice to see you again. I know what you mean about Robin Williams. He was such a talented person and so troubled. It has been my experience that humor can be used as a cover for other feelings, sarcastic humor can express anger, sadness, disappointment, sarcasm and fear, it can put up a wall between you and other people but it can also be a cry for help and support. Sounds like you have a lot of insight into yourself and how you use your sarcasm. I am hopeful that you are also opening yourself up to getting support from others, that you can let your wall down and let other people in. Are you getting some help from a mental health professional? Glad you shared this. I am sure you are not alone. Stay in touch, okay?

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