Hello,

By MarianneinLosAngeles Latest Activity March 12 at 8:23 pm Views 903 Replies 6 Likes 1

MarianneinLosAngeles

I am writing here today because I spent a full day at work, surrounded by people, feeling helplessly alone.

And I watched them, as they flitted about with laughter and energy and I enviously wondered how they could feel such a way. Meanwhile I was continuously soothing my nerves by talking to myself inside my own head, just to keep myself from crying.

I feel so alone like this, on most days, and am hoping to find a community who is able to accept me as I am here. I don't like feeling like I have to pretend to be happy.

I've struggled with depression, anxiety, poor body image, and eating disorders for most of my life.

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  • MolovesHP
    MolovesHP June 8 at 4:24 pm   

    Thank you for writing. I’m hopeful just knowing that there’s other people who feel the same way as I do. I’m constantly talking in my head to myself about why I feel how I feel or how I can just get through 10 more minutes. Pretending to be happy is so much extra work, but sometimes it’s the only way to get through the day. I Appreciate you sharing.

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous April 26 at 3:09 am   

    Hi Marianne,
    I also have a similar situation at work. I also feel alone. I work with quite a few other people. Half the time when I walk into work not even one person says hello. I feel like I don't even exist.

  • Poodle2
    Poodle2 April 11 at 7:18 pm   

    Hi Marianne.
    I have a similar situation at work. I feel completely alone even though there are people all around me. I don't have a single friend at work and most of my co-workers are women. Sometimes my co-workers go out to lunch and I sit at my desk and eat by myself. No one ever invites me and I have been there for 3 years. I think my struggle with chronic depression, OCD, anxiety, and panic attacks has held me back in my career.

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous April 11 at 7:18 pm   
    Edited April 11 at 7:20 pm by Anonymous

    I hope you start to feel better!

  • Poodle2
    Poodle2 April 11 at 7:16 pm   

    Hi Marianne.
    I have a similar situation at work. I feel completely alone even though there are people all around me. I don't have a single friend at work and most of my co-workers are women. Sometimes my co-workers go out to lunch and I sit at my desk and eat by myself. No one ever invites me and I have been there for 3 years. I think my struggle with chronic depression, OCD, anxiety, and panic attacks has held me back in my career.

  • Dr GaryCA March 15 at 2:05 pm   

    Hi Marianne, it's great to meet you. I am glad you found your way to Depression Connect. You are not alone! We are a community of people who understand what it's like to feel depressed because they are traveling the same road. My clients often talk to me about how they feel isolated from other people, watching them seemingly enjoy their lives while they feel like a lonely observer. I just have to ask if you are working with a mental health professional. This could help a lot. If you aren't sure where to start, you could even ask your doctor for a referral, doctors are often in touch with mental health professionals. Take good care of yourself! And keep us posted on how you're doing.

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