Hi It figures,
Nice to see you and I am glad you checked in. Glad you are making use of technology to find supportive friends. Depression Connect is all about supporting each other, so you came to the right place.
So sorry to hear you have been having a hard time of things. Sounds like you have had a lot of difficult situations to deal with, including health problems.
Glad to hear you have a supportive husband.
If you are prescribed medication, then it is really important to stay on it. Are there any other options? Can your husband go and pick it up for you? Can you have it delivered?
Also, if you are afraid something bad could happen to you at the hospital, then I encourage you to tell you doctor that you have this fear. And also important for your doctor to know you are having trouble coping. I hope you will reach out to your doctor and let him/her know what's going on with you and that you are afraid to pick up your medication. Your doctor may be able to help, but only if you let your doctor know that you need help.
Take good care of yourself, my friend. Get help from your doctor.
And I hope you will stay in touch with us. You are not alone.